I still feel

it is true that feelings are based upon what we experience in this life which, depending on your view, is all or nothing of what existance really is: or both. Even with all of that in mind. I still feel empty. But I do have a more solid idea of what I am lacking. It is not God who was far from me, it is I who am far from God, so far. I have been so unfaithful in my spiritual preperation for returning home that I have become completely empty. I need to get back to God's feet, and not even his feet, outside his throne room...nope, I need to get on my knees in prayer.
What I am also empty of is home, the smell, the sounds, the comfort, the people. I am empty of what it is. Of all these things I feel empty.

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